Wednesday, November 10, 2010

1. I am a 34-year-old bi-curious woman. I have only been in romantic relationships with men, so I'm reluctant to call myself bisexual, but I am very sexually attracted to women. I am not PC, and I secretly hate all the PC terms for gender and sexuality. I am respectful, though; I will go along with what people prefer to be called.

2. The kinkiest thing I have ever done is pee in a guy's mouth. I got performance anxiety and had a hard time getting started, but once I did, it gushed into his mouth, and he swallowed. We both really enjoyed it.

3. My clit is so sensitive that it is very painful if someone touches it directly. It has to be touched through my hood. My urethra is also extremely sensitive and hurts if it is touched the wrong way.

4. I used to be able to come fairly easily in most positions either by myself or with a partner. A few years ago I went through a period of time where I could hardly come at all. Now it's difficult for me to come when I'm with a partner, and I usually need to be lying flat on my back with my legs straight down for it to happen. I can sometimes come in other positions with a vibrator, but it takes a while. This really bothers me, and I wish it were different, but I'm too lazy to work with myself and relearn how to come in other positions. When I'm with a partner, I have to focus really hard to come, and the closer I get, the quieter and more still I get. Sometimes partners are confused by this.

5. When I masturbate I almost always make myself come as quickly as possible. I start with grand ideas of teasing myself and prolonging my orgasm, but as soon as I get started, I get greedy and want to come right away. The most I've ever come in one session masturbating is five times. The most I've ever come with a partner is twice.

6. I fantasize almost exclusively about fucking women and making them come. For porn to get me off it has to show women having real orgasms. I like amateur and realistic stuff - girl on girl and girls masturbating - the best.

7. I currently have intense sexual crushes on two of my female friends. One of them would probably have sex with me, but I'm too intimidated and shy to make the first move, and I don't think she will initiate, although she likes to flirt with me and tease me.

8. I am submissive and like pain during sex. I have a high pain tolerance. I like being slapped, punched, grabbed, bitten, choked, and having my hair pulled. I also like being dominated, degraded, and feeling used. My favorite thing to be called is a dirty little slut. I love having marks left on me after sex. Once I got a hickey right on the front of my neck the night before I had to go to a wedding. I went to the MAC store and got them to cover it up for me.

9. I once met a bisexual guy off Craigslist in a parking lot, followed him to his male friend's house, watched the two of them have sex, and then joined in. I got to suck a dick and be fucked in the pussy at the same time. I still stay in touch with the guy and hook up with him every now and then.

10. My ex-boyfriend got another girl pregnant while we were together. After we broke up, I had two threesomes with the two of them when she was 8 months pregnant. It was very hot but way too emotionally charged. I'm good friends with her now, but it's a strange relationship peppered with jealousy and mild animosity. I'm still dying to fuck my ex again, and I know I could easily do it, but I also know it would be terrible for all of us and would ruin my relationship with her.

11. The hottest moment of my life was during a MFF threesome with my ex while we were still together. I was eating her out, and he was fucking me from behind. They both came at the same time. I felt like such a stud.

12. The most uninhibited I've ever been during sex was when another ex-boyfriend used to fuck me in the ass. I couldn't believe the things that would come out of my mouth, and I'd have the best orgasms ever. When I was a teenager masturbating, if I stuck my finger in my ass, it would make me come right away. It doesn't do that for me anymore. Now I really have to be in the mood for anal, and I go through long periods of time where I don't feel like doing it.

13. I am very attractive, and guys check me out all the time. In some ways this makes me self-conscious and uncomfortable, but if it stopped happening, I'd be bummed. Despite being checked out all the time, guys rarely hit on me or ask me out. I am aloof and intimidating and awkward and shy.

14. When I first started masturbating in my early teens I did it every night, but then I went to boarding school and had a roommate, and I stopped. I think this really interfered with my sexual development.

15. Every few months or so I have a sex dream that makes me have an orgasm in my sleep.

16. I wish a lot of things were different about my sexuality. I wish I had a higher sex drive. I wish I were one of those girls who could come easily any time and in any position. I wish I were very flirtatious and could pick up guys or girls anytime I wanted. I wish my clit and urethra weren't so sensitive. I wish my sexuality wasn't so tied in with my stress and emotions. My fantasy is that when I meet the right partner, I'll magically be cured of all my sexual problems.

17. I want to fuck a pre-op MtF transsexual. I think it would be so hot. I had a dream once that I was being fucked by a female coworker of mine, and she had a dick.

18. I had abortions when I was 22 and 25. Despite years of therapy and working through my feelings, I still regret them and hate myself for succumbing to pressure from others to have them. I think this has had a major negative impact on my sexuality today, but I feel hopeless about fixing it.

19. I learned a lot about sex from the Clan of the Cave Bear series when I was a preteen. I used to get so turned on reading the sex scenes in those books. Now reading erotica does almost nothing for me.

20. The smell of a guy's armpit is super sexy to me. I like natural body odors and tastes. I used to hate any artificial scents, but my ex used Old Spice deodorant, so now the smell of that turns me on. I also love the smell of heads.

21. I love the idea of group sex, orgies, and swinging, but I am afraid I am too shy to actually do them. I hope to have a partner someday who will encourage me and help me open up.

22. I have had my heart broken or been terribly let down by all of my serious boyfriends. I have the same pattern with my dad. I worry that I won't ever be attracted to a man who won't treat me like this.

23. I read sex blogs incessantly. I got to meet the author of my favorite sex blog, and we hit it off right away. I hooked up with her partner (they have an open relationship), and hopefully we'll all have great threesome sex the next time we see each other.

24. I get really turned on hanging out with groups of guys, the raunchier the better. All that testosterone gets me going. I wish I could be a fly on the wall and know how guys really talk about women when there's no woman in the room. I love girl-watching with guys. I love everything about the way men crave, objectify, and worship women.

25. I love the idea of exploring intimate lovemaking and intense BDSM, but I am also terrified of them and have rarely allowed myself to go there even with long-term partners. Trust and intimacy are really hard for me. I'm more comfortable having casual sex with someone than with dating them.