Sunday, November 21, 2010

1. I am a 20-year-old heterosexual female. I find women attractive but rarely to the same degree as boys and I've never had romantic feelings for a woman, hence the hetero part. I think labels are sometimes annoying, sometimes useful.

2. I had my first orgasm when I was about seven or so. My best friend and I used to hump things together, without thinking too much about what we were doing.

3. Over the years, I've progressed from humping things to actually touching myself and figuring out how to make myself orgasm with more and more success. Once, I thought I'd test myself, and I managed to come five times in fifteen minutes. I'm still oddly proud of that record. One of my favourite positions is where I lie on my back, pull my legs close and wrap my arms over my thighs and under my calves.

4. My first crush was really intense, unrequited, and took me years to get over. I had a lot of unnecessary angst at that age (about thirteen).

5. Technically, my first kiss was with my best friend, but I only half count it as such because there were no romantic feelings attached.

6. I've kissed one girl and five boys. I've had sex with three boys.

7. I don't feel emotionally equipped to enjoy one night stands. Maybe one day I will but I would rather fuck someone I care about and that cares about me. For me, friends with benefits is a terrible idea. I'm sure it works for some people but I do not see the point.

8. I like menstrual blood. It's not a hardcore kink (I don't really have any of those) but I like it. I've had period sex once but found myself a little disappointed that it wasn't more bloody. I think it's aesthetically pleasing and there's just something sexy about it. A big part of the appeal is about someone embracing even the "icky" parts of me. I also think there's something awesome about a bolder, prettier visual representation of my arousal.

9. My first real boyfriend was wonderful. It was the first, and only, time I've been in love. I don't really believe in the idea of "virginity" but I define it as the first time I had sex. We lasted about six months before I realised I had to end things. He no longer made any effort and it made me miserable so that was that.

10. If someone asked if I had ever cheated on someone, I would say no. However, I do think that I wandered into a slightly grey area at one point.

11. I am an incredibly emotional person. I love sex and love and all the parts in between. Most of the time, I feel content with being single because every other aspect of my life is awesome. I have a pretty good level of confidence and I don't feel any less of a person for not having someone. However, I would like a special someone.

12. So I joined a dating site. It's been pretty fun but there I haven't found anything lasting.

13. I really want to try anal sex and pegging one day. For entirely different reasons, of course.

14. I used to feel very guilty about wanting a boyfriend but I've now come to terms with that. It's not like I don't love my life and it's not like I'll take just anyone to "fill the void."

15. Intimacy, friendship, love and sex are all tied together in my head. I want it all and I won't settle for less. If I want to get off, I can do that by myself, and if I want friendship, I already have that.

16. I enjoy porn but more photography and audio. I guess I like it when there's more left up to the imagination and I guess I find photos and audio are generally more emotional. I've been investigating solo male masturbation videos lately, and they seem to do it for me. I wish there was more audio out there--I think it's so hot!

17. I really love it when I have the chance to be noisy. I love listening to my partner too, but I've always been much louder than any of my partners.

18. I feel incredibly comfortable in my own skin. I used to feel very insecure, but now I love my body.

19. I am a fairly passive lover. I guess I'm just a fairly passive person and I find it hard to make decisions that affect other people. I would like to work on that, though. I would like to ask for more of what I want.

20. I love being kissed or fucked up against a wall or being picked up. I suppose this has to do with my passive nature. I don't like pain but I do enjoy a good spanking. I also like being told what to do so long as it works the other way too and that I feel respected.

21. I really want more cunnilingus. I've had it done to me a number of times but not nearly as much as I've returned the favour. I would love to find a guy who likes getting me off and tasting me as much as I love pleasuring him.

22. That said, I love sucking cock.

23. I thought I had learned everything about my own body and tastes, but I keep getting surprised. Through my long-term boyfriend, I discovered that I can get off through my g-spot and now I can do it myself. Through another boy, I discovered I can come through PIV sex. Through the wonders of the internet, I've learnt that breathing deeply helps improve my orgasms.

24. I'm a chubby chaser. I can find any body type attractive, depending on the person, but husky boys really do it for me. There's something so hot about thick fingers, big, stubbly cheeks, chunky thighs and soft stomachs.

25. I've grown a lot through my various experiences. Emotionally, I keep getting better at letting things go and just being grateful for the experiences I have. I have faith that one day there will be a boy who's just right. In the meantime, it's self portraits, porn, dildos and discussions, here we come!